you gave me your heart and I put it in a box for safe keeping. although it was safe it was slowly suffocating. i kept it locked away from all the monsters, but in all my trying maybe it was me who was the monster. for putting your heart in a box for my keeping. […]
please don’t go.
please don’t go i’m more broken than you know please don’t go i’m hurting more than i can show please don’t go i need you by my side please don’t go I don’t want to hide please don’t go i’m afraid of myself please don’t go leaving my heart on a shelf please don’t go […]
she is art.
with a warm glow and skin as radiant as the sun it’s as if she was made to absorb it’s perfect rays. her oceanic eyes cause hurricanes inside your chest without a storm warning. her heart is filled with fields of flowers and every word that flows from her mouth sounds like the a perfect […]
you are the universe.
you wear all the oceans and all the stars and all the planets. the whole universe cradled perfectly in your eyes. so mysterious and captivating all at once. an explosion of color so rare that God himself is sure to be in awe of the way they radiate. i look helplessly into them and can’t […]
but today
the clouds opened up and in an instance the atmosphere matched the way i felt inside. dark and gloomy there was rain all around as if the sky knew exactly what was brewing inside my skull. most days i like the rain and the chaos that it brings, but today. i needed you.
in the dark.
sitting on floor in the dark i feel alone sitting on the floor in the dark i feel a sadness in my bones. sitting on the floor in the dark my thoughts begin to stray. sitting on the floor in the dark the colors in my head turn to gray. sitting on the floor in the dark, a […]
eighteen miles
eighteen miles from my doorstep to yours. eighteen miles. such a small number considering how big the world is. but this small. haunting eighteen miles seem universes away on nights like tonight when all i need is to be wrapped up in the safety of your loving arms. eighteen miles from my doorstep to yours. […]
untitled.
I sit across the room from you watching in awe at how the mere sight of you fills up the space surrounding me. I try so hard to catch my breath but it escapes my chest every chance it gets. you are all that I can see. darling everything that you are and everything that […]
Fighting The Ocean
watching you speed away and turn down the street and out of my sight brings me to my knees as I feel a pain I have never felt before. perfect and patient I am so undeserving of a soul as gentle as yours. seeing the uncertainty in your eyes and a shakiness in your voice as […]
and then you
staring at a box of my old empty promises, cold and shiny they still try to convince me but I stare at a picture of you so lovely and so inviting. so full of love and comfort. you are my safe place. the box tries to speak over you. it’s distracting. ‘just once for old time […]
Oceans Apart
oceans apart and your smile is still the only thing that brings joy to my heart oceans apart and your eyes are the only thing that shine brighter than the stars dancing over the darkness of the waves oceans apart and I can still feel the warmth of your lips pressed so perfectly against mine […]
two fifty seven.
it’s two fifty seven and i can’t sleep at this time of night my thoughts run deep. it’s two fifty seven and i’m thinking of you, and how i’m captivated by everything that you do. it’s two fifty seven and i want your hand in mine, would it be okay with you if i gave […]
For You
like a cool rain on a hot summer day you waltzed into my life and I hoped that you would stay. with ease you replaced what was once a darkness inside me with a light that is burning bright. you’re everything I hoped you’d be. there are millions galaxies in your eyes. shining a light […]
You Made Me Love Myself
I spent so many days consumed in darkness. so many days consumed in self hate. so many days teetering between breathing or taking my own breath away. it would have been so easy. so easy to slam my car into a tree, make it look like an accident so my loved ones wouldn’t be as […]
Crimson Nights(from 2010)
My mind is clouded today, everything inside is dark. All I want to do is go into my room and make another mark. A thin little slice will make everything seem so nice I know its not right… But that’s not what I’ll be thinking by the end of the night. I’ll take the blade […]
Rainy Days
I will not be a prisoner of my past. No matter how hard, I’ll always fight. Rainy days were never meant to last. Pain will fade although it won’t come fast. I will not give into the dark, dark night. I will not be a prisoner of my past. A new journey I can finally […]
You Weren’t Afraid of The Night
Everyone wants someone to come into their world and brighten up their days. Who doesnt like sunny days, right? They are warm and full of hope and joy, Who wouldnt want that in their life? Me. See I never needed someone to come in and be my sunshine. no. I needed someone to swoop in […]
i love you.
i spend my days thinking of words to express how much you mean to me. and through all of my trying i can of only think three. i love you. i love you on the days you’re happy and all the more on the days you’re sad. i love you when you’re feeling goofy and […]
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